I have always loved expressing myself through writing..
I write poems, essays about what is troubling me --- well, that's IT!
I only get an itch to write when I am troubled :(
Well "To each it's own motivation to write" :p
I am working in this organization for almost ... let's see.. counting, minus...
well, what do you know! Fifteen years! The first 10 years are Happy times.
And everything went downhill.
I am very unhappy with my work now -- well since I returned from a 6 month training stint abroad.
I try to work as usual -- actually I think am more productive now than before.. being in charge of a project is awesome shit! Am cursing and in awed at the same time, not necessarily Happy, mind you. People who supervises me are not exactly great motivators or even a fan of my work. So imagine me, doing all I can possibly do and getting pokered- face most of the time.
Maybe it's my personality. I am a Libra, a Dragon in Chinese horoscope - a lethal combination. And it matters? Hell yeah! We are not passive individuals, we are show offs and very out spoken. And having to restrain myself to be Me so I won't come out as a pompous ass or be bossy and opinionated is just gonna KILL ME! actually killing me inside...
I can't leave my job. Not until next year.
I am tied to work here until next year... in the mean time, what to do?
Scout for other jobs... study and pass the coveted Test.... take things one day at a time....
I am trying to be positive. Thinking the Universe is going to pull all the positive shits and throw them all at me :) After fifteen years, what do I have to offer as a working individual?
I am not sure actually....
But you know...reading these motivate me to go beyond my comfort zone.
