What to write?

What to write?
I have always loved expressing myself through writing..
I write poems, essays about what is troubling me --- well, that's IT!
I only get an itch to write when I am troubled :(
Well "To each it's own motivation to write" :p

I am working in this organization for almost ... let's see.. counting, minus...
well, what do you know! Fifteen years! The first 10 years are Happy times.
And everything went downhill.

I am very unhappy with my work now -- well since I returned from a 6 month training stint abroad.
I try to work as usual -- actually I think am more productive now than before.. being in charge of a project is awesome shit! Am cursing and in awed at the same time, not necessarily Happy, mind you.  People who supervises me are not exactly great motivators or even a fan of my work.  So imagine me, doing all I can possibly do and getting pokered- face most of the time.

Maybe it's my personality.  I am a Libra, a Dragon in Chinese horoscope - a lethal combination. And it matters? Hell yeah! We are not passive individuals, we are show offs and very out spoken. And having to restrain myself to be Me so I won't come out as a pompous ass or  be bossy and opinionated is just gonna KILL ME! actually killing me inside...

I can't leave my job. Not until next year.
I am tied to work here until next year... in the mean time, what to do?
Scout for other jobs... study and pass the coveted Test.... take things one day at a time....

I am trying to be positive. Thinking the Universe is going to pull all the positive shits and throw them all at me :)  After fifteen years, what do I have to offer as a working individual?

I am not sure actually....
But you know...reading these motivate me to go beyond my comfort zone.

 

   

Control Freak.. LET GO!!

I realized quite late in the game that I am a Control freak.
In relationships, whether friendship or romantic.
At work, regardless if its trivial task or not.

What a way to get stressed out all the time! And the funny thing is that, It didn`t even crossed my wee brain that am trying to control too much already.

That was before...I have finally learned to LET GO!  Well, to a  certain extent :p
I try to step back and calm myself when something inside me quivers to take control, control, control!

I still get fanatic with ideas, followed it through... but now I try to let things unfold, especially if I have done all that is necessary to be done.

What makes you STOP and take that SHOT?

In this age of smart phones with cool camera and applications..

anyone and everyone can be a photographer :)

Most use their phone-cam for "selfies" (am guilty too), capturing moments with friends, families and pets. But others make use of this cool gadget to satisfy the creative, artistic side of their being.

Lately, for me -- I found a lot of interesting angles and scenes that turns into inspirations or motivations just walking in the busy street. I cannot help but take out my phone and stop to capture that moment, that image!

Walking to work.. interesting, beautiful trees greet me most mornings :)

  

The beauty of the night with its colorful lights flashing gaily, captured my eyes.

  

The eye catching interiors of an establishment builds up an ambiance, stimulating and engaging their patrons` curious eyes.

                         

There a LOT of other things I could have posted here with all the shots I have taken with the trusted Phone-Cam, but then again it`s best to save some for later posts :p

I hope you get to make use of your shots too! The  world wide web will definitely save it for us for all eternity.. hahaha!

starting over :)

I was in a very dark place before
but being there I found my God.

It was indeed a journey for one
in the end i found my way back to myself.

I am still no better, still my weak self
but now I can smile and say, I am still a work in progress.

I prayed for an inspiration
then I found him, he discovered me
and the story continues...

Welcome the new blogger in me.

Join me in my book reading, coffee or tea drinking escapades, my stories of me and of you.